Abandonded
i am not a professional singer or guitarists but I attempted to use playing the guitar and an outlet of the pain that was within me. I needed help so deperately. I wanted to die.
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writer – singer: Steve Valencia aka Lone Wolf Howing at the moon
The inspiration for this song
The approximate time of this songs’ making is 06/16/2012. On this date it’s been eleven years since my wife said these words. I love you but I am not “in love with you.”
My “hard-ass-macho” attitude and pride responded inside as if you are not in love me then whats’ the point. And she added, I will stay with you for the children. By this time I was pissed because of the things she had occured. The actons of prejudice, discrimination and hatred of those in Calaveras. The actions that stole from me and my family what could of been a legacy for my children and grand-children.
My anger grew, I was helpless due to what happened to me in Calaveras County!
With two beautiful daughers who I did not want to grow up like me, I hung in there until their mother could get a job with working hours that would allow “us” to share custody and then I went through with the divorce.
I was in agony! I because depressed. I understood why people comit suicide! I prayed for help. God helped me. I thank him. It hurts me now to type these words. Tears swell up in my eyes.
My children quit answering my calls or texts. And I, do not want to be they type of parent that is not wanted in their homes of lives. I do not want to impose myself on them. I do not get to watch my grand-children grow or share events. Now! All of them are gone. I feel Abandonded.
Single and alone, a lone wolf…crying in my heart and mind everyday. I thought I met a friend and soulmate in 2010. Nicki was her name… it was not meant to be…six month later she was gone.
I have learned to pray to God for a “Shield of Comfort & Protection” from the arrows of pain and suffering. He has done so. I still feel the impact of the emotions hitting the SHield of Comfor & Protection” everyday. Somedays more that others.
I hope also, that anyone contemplating taking their own life listen to this song all the way to the end, if you can. My hope is that you can.
Feel my pain and listen to my testimony.
If you want to purchase this song you can. I am working on another website to hopefully make up financially for some of what I have lost. I will never be able to make up or replace what I have lost in family. Wolfie V on WhatsHappeningToday.com
